Last Friday I had sex again with M1, believe it or not it's only been the fourth time (with him).. But many more are too come. and to be honest it was the best ever, felt really pleased and he said I was good :) Although now I realize we are not going to be anything else, apart from fuck buddies, it's fine, I accept this fact. I thought I loved him But honestly I don't think I do, lately I haven't missed him and when we end up meeting I felt something had change in me. I still like him but like him I don't see us as a we. It's best this way, at least I won't get hurt.
Any way, off to lisbon tomorow for two weeks then work a week more and off to NYC for another two weeks, including my birthday :D till later X L
Crappy day today, although I was off from work. I need to sort out my life, I see time passing by and me doing nothing. Also M hasn't said anything yet... not sign that he is still breaving. I don't care... I already set up my self for a date next week with a very handsome man, he is a well known artist within the art circle of London, a philosopher a master of spirituality. He has a beautiful dark and mix grey beard and to top it up, beautiful Blue eyes. He shaves his hair which is my preference in a good handsome bloke. Older then me and in good shape, even better, he is in a open relationship which means I know where I stand... ahaha. His name also starts with an M... so he can be M2.
At the moment I'm finishing the arrangements of the "like a virgin" song, my band playnbeauty new version of the Madonna classic. I can guarantee it's a 100% different from the original and even Madonna is going to be deadly jealous. I've been practising a lot on the reason programme and am already a pro. will have a special guest appearance and will be available soon on myspace... I will send the link later on. That's all for now folks... write more later.
Yes.. It's been a long time and I don't care. At the moment I'm just exploding on my own account so don't take any notice. I'm fed up with fucking cunts who always pretend to be your friends, fuck you from behind and then if that wasn't enough they try to make you feel guilty, which doesn't work any more since it's not the first time I've been through situations like this. But well that is part of living. M is still going, although now much clearer to me... I guess we are just Fuck buddies and I can't complain. Two weeks ago i participated on installation film, "The Washroom Talks" a series of intimate videorecorded discussions within private and public washrooms in different locations in London with different people volunteered. here is the link: http://www.zeitraum.co.uk/washroom_talk_three.htm then, on the same day in the evening I took part of my first ever live performance at the Rockabaret where the them was the French Revolution, and I did the role of the Ring master of the can can girls. here is the footage, where my friend Adrian is being hysterical screaming my name:
I'm now in love with Grace Jones :) I think this video is a state of the art or whatever expression they use to say amazing and fabulous.
in fact one of my next photo projects will be a tribute to her... I found the perfect model to do this with... yeah because I'm a lucky guy. So need to some research on GJ history and put my hands into work.
Finally, my darlings I introduce to you the livejournal premiere of my first ever made film in Super 8 called "Sleeping beauty palace": a dark film about the contrasts of beauty and horror. beauty lost in the middle of a forest,horror incarnated in the flesh of a beautiful women. destruction and kindness mixed. Enjoy
Oh yeah... forgot to mention, I have been having this throat ache for a few weeks now and today I lost my voice. That's all... Oh and yeah bored to death today, only crap movies on TV, I might go for a walk in the park.
Jodie, my ex-assistant manager has left the company I work for to resolve some private problems, I do miss her a lot and it feels quiet awkward work without her. Jodie here is some footage for us to remember the good times at work while having breaks. This was when a girl called Jodie to know if her boyfriend was having an affair with her... How odd:
we do all need a little bit of sunshine in the present.
This is the best band on earth and I'm so glad their new album is coming and I will be able to see them for the third time live... and I can guarantee if you never saw them live you will be in for a surprise.
Oh my god!!!!!! I forgot I don't have a boyfriend... ahaha... my head these days just doesn't work anymore. And today couldn't be better... I mean if you don't have a boyfriend this is the best season ever. think about that you don't have to go rushing buying silly presents, so not original like a box of chocolates or some fresh roses... You don't have to cook any special meals and wash the dishes later, you don't have to say lies to someone you can hardly have a decent conversation with these days, you don't have to pretend you are having a fabulous time, you don't have to be all dressed up looking ridiculous, you don't have to be force to have sex when you don't feel like it at all. and finally you don't have to sigh all the time... Ahaha... it's just wonderfull to be on your own, don't you think?? I do. happy valentine's day ... lovers. I'm off to Lisbon today. kiss Luis
I can't believe people are selling these gears... I mean if it's for a proper espionage business for super agents it's alright but for domestic use??? It's an absurd.. Can you imagine if these gears fall on the wrong hands...Hello sex video tapes traps... You and I will probably end up being porno stars movies against our wills and without getting any money out of it. just wherever you go or sleep... watch out for the surroundings, you have been warned.
Alright my people, Two days ago, I believe it was two days ago I woke up and had the best surprise (morning surprise if we can call it that) through my window since I’ve been living in London. What? You might ask… well everything was WHITE… The park, the lake, the roofs and many more. Loved it… It had snow during the night and one was expecting it. My walk to work was just for the first time, delightful it really put me in a good mood for the rest of the day even though I got problems to get inside Selfridges and had to call my area manager about my delay. However it’s all good. I have a date and a birthday party on Saturday, two in one right… And have already another date on the beginning of March, after I come back from My Lisbon/Madrid trip holidays. So yeah, I guess my schedule is becoming a little busy… Any of you fancy a date??? I still have a few vacancies. Love you all
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